Humility

In asking a few days ago what I needed to learn from my trials and challenges, I heard "humility". Therefore, I've been trying to study humility so I can get over the trials! If only it were possible. I get a little successful at trying to be humble and then an uncharitable thought about another person pops into my mind and I get feeling like I'm the greatest and this other person doesn't have a clue. All I have to do is look in a mirror and I see it isn't so. I need to learn how to use the power of my spirit to overcome my worldly mind and body. There is such a big section on humility in the topical guide that I've been studying for a couple of days and haven't gotten out of Proverbs (of course with cross-referencing that just gets me off on new tangents!), but I really enjoy the Amplified Bible with all its possibilities. It adds all these extra words to "amplify" the meaning. I'm all about using a dictionary to get a better understanding of words.

I guess I got off of humility. We've been reading The Redeemer, a compilation of articles by various authors. I have gotten so uncomfortable about Jesus Christ doing so much for me, someone who is not worth all the suffering He went through. I do not like to impose on people. This I have no control over. I guess I agreed to it in the pre-existence. I think we all agreed to things about this life without really knowing what they would mean. We couldn't know until we experienced earth life. Maybe that's for the best, eh?

One insight I received yesterday about gaining humility was "service". I guess if we are busy serving others, we're thinking more of them, loving them, becoming more charitable in our thoughts and hopefully there would be less room for uncharitable thoughts.

Writing, creative or not

I chatted with my son this afternoon on facebook. The little window popped up and scared me. (Lately, everything scares me. My other son likes to slink around in the morning and scare me. My husband will suddenly appear and scare me. Is my hearing going?) Anyway, I had a nice chat with #1 son. We ended it since he was at work and I then went to hotmail to write him a more detailed message. I struggled with that email. Thinking lately for me is like reaching into a bowl of oatmeal to find one of the three raisins residing there. Where are all those words that I have learned through all the years? I know they are in there. I guess I need to go back down the neural paths more often to make them all ditches, easier to get to. How to do that? Read, study. I put things in all the time. Sometimes I can recall them and sometimes I can't quite form in words what I'm thinking. I have decided that part of the problem is that I have not practiced writing for a long time. Therefore, I am now practicing. I will say that from now on I will practice writing regularly. This is February 4, 2009. I wonder if suddenly it will be October of 2010 before I write again. Could happen unless I make it a priority, just like the other 20 priorities that I have. I'll make this brief so I don't get burned out and dread writing again. That is all...